Iphone, small town, and change.

It is almost midnight and I lay awake thinking of what I am doing in my life. I have a job that under appreciates me, and is paying the bills but that is all. I want something I can enjoy something that helps me grow, that builds relationships with lifelong friends, and that makes me get butterflies as I get ready for work. I want more change! I don’t know if I will ever settle in a place but I know I am getting closer. Soon I will be in a  place alone for the first time in my life; and I am overwhelmed with excitement.

I am okay with not doing college now, I may go back at some point…or I may find other things to do. I want to be a productive, helping individual. Is that too much to ask? I got an Iphone recently I love it and do not know what I did before I got one. I am paing off my bills without going too much more into debt. I pay off a lot quicker than I can spend and I almost have a credit card payed off just a couple more checks. The little house(apartment) is in a little town, engufed in a little community. It is a dream place…the price is a bit high but nowhere compared to where I am leaving now so I am happy.

There are a lot of “‘I’s” but I have a lot to say and don’t know at this point how to get it all out other than blabbering on  and on and then posting, before it’s all gone. My kitty (Bengal cat) Hobbes likes the new place she adapts very well which is good for me because this is three times since I have had her she just gets a bit clingy in the beginning, but it is a good time to force those cuddles in. I have adopted my little sisters pet rat as my own and taken it in with me he is very sweet(even though I cannot stand mice or rats) and he licks me like a small puppy. He is fat and I would say a little under a foot long not including his tail…named, Sebastian.

So even though I may “claim” i am living alone my household seems to be getting larger. My boo is hopefully going to visit a lot causing me to stay occupied with attention giving all around to a kitty, a rat, and a boo. What a wild bunch I’m collecting!?

I am not doing the piercing thing much every now and then someone wants something done and I have had enough non-self-learning jobs to get a tad better…even though I still feel confident. I am leaving my hair alone with the dyes because I cannot remember when my hair was non-altered last, descibing why I want to leave it alone.

I got some dishes recently and I was very excited to use my bargaining skills to go to big lots and get a 16 piece set for fifteen dollars all matte black and wonderful i am thinking black and lime green will be my collection color with silver accents.  So the little things excite me a bit more now. I have learned a lot and continue to on a daily basis not just about myself and who I am becoming, but where my morals lie, what my beliefs are, and what i want to accomplish.

Hell…I even started a scrap book because I was so sick and tired of having all my memories that were flat tied up in “old book smelling” boxes, when I could review them more if they were closer to my living items. I am trying to document every movie I have watched since I graduated to tickets to museums and aquariums. You know a lot of the memories I have made in the past year have been with my boo? I think the boo is …well I know the boo is one of the best things that has happened to me.

We have a list of shared or separate desires that we want to do together and as we go about them we mark them off and document how we accomplished them in the scrapbook. I know that if anything happens to us (which I severely hope it doesn’t) we will have a book that I can copy and I have so many memories already and happy times that I think I could be okay, because
I have been treated with nothing but compassion and kindness, and that is the best I could ask for.

I will stay afloat no matter the floods that continually fight to completely engulf me.